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(...)

We are that kind of people who don't talk every day because they don't need frequency to justify the strength of their friendship. We are that kind of people who don't need explanations to understand each other. You're shit at wording your ideas, I'm awesome at reading between the lines. I'm shit at picking myself off the ground, you're awesome at kicking my butt back into gear.

I don't take you for granted.

Nor do I feel that I have to work for this. I just feel grateful that it exists and I had the balls to tell you and you had the decency to take me seriously, even though I might have come off as a weirdo at that time. Well, I am one, but so are you.

(...)

You once said I know so much about you. I know I now know a little less than I could've, but the lot that I do know I've actively searched to know it. And even now I call tell when you have something to share and I only have to ask the right questions. You're predictable in that aspect.

I'm digressing. Don't matter.

What I'm trying to say is ... I trust you. There is honestly nothing we could gain by using this friendship, which is exactly why it still stay strong and tall. It is based on honest and mutual trust, not on gains and expectations, there's nothing to be won and nothing that could be used.

(...)

Almost 4 years have passed and although we've spent together a grand total of just a few weeks, we're tighter than a pair of desk-mates will ever be. And that's something special.

x

Quollection 42

Dintre sutele de pasi care au batut drumul nostru nocturn de la patul tau in bucatarie si inapoi, i-ai mai recunoaste pe ai mei, apasati si stangaci? 

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Sa fie oare posibil ca undeva in lumea asta cineva sa tanjeasca dupa mine? Cineva sa fie croit pe masura tenebrelor si frustrarilor mele? Sa fie oare cineva destinat mie si numai mie? Cati dintre noi nu ne intalnim niciodata?

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Poate ca iubire e atunci cand, dupa ce ai stins lumina la baie si ti-ai vazut ochii obositi in oglinda, alti ochi ii privesc pe ai tai de undeva din intunericul apropiat. Si esti impacat cu asta si nu mai tanjesti dupa nimic altceva. Poate ca iubirea e cand nu-ti mai esti tie oglinda.

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Cred ca inima mea e inchisa pentru renovare. Nu mai incercati.

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Cred ca mi-am negat niste dureri in ultimii doi ani. Niste lovituri. Aparent a fost bine. Pare ca te simti mai puternic. Aproape reuseti sa-ti vinzi iluzia asta. Ca esti mai puternic. Pana cand intr-o zi un singur cuvant declanseaza in tine durere nevindecata, netratata, netraita, peste care ai aruncat zeci de kilograme de uitare asa cum arunci nisip peste jarul unui foc de plaja dupa ce s-a terminat o noapte magica si te duci sa te culci pe unde nu conteaza.

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Oamenii tind sa nu priveasca decat in fata, ca si cand numai de acolo ar trebui sa avem asteptari.

Quollection 41

Chiar dorită, sinceritatea absolută nu e uşor de atins şi poate că nici nu e posibilă. Te izbeşti în tine însuţi de o tristeţe care te demoralizează. "Ce rost are?" te întreabă ea. Unele greşeli tot nu mai poţi să le îndrepţi. Nu poţi să răsuceşti clepsidra. Şi, apoi, chiar dacă te hotărăşti să spui totul nu vei reuşi să exprimi totul. O confesiune presupune răbdare, curaj, voinţă, pricepere de a spune, dar, în ultimă instanţă, ea e şi o chestiune de şansă. Cât izbutesc cuvintele să exprime din ceea ce e ascuns în tăcere? – Octavian Paler

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“Fiecare om îşi alcătuieşte de-a lungul vieţii un edificiu afectiv. Măsura în care el este e dată de consistenţa acestui edificiu, de mâna aceea de oameni, ei nu pot fi mulţi, pe care i-a preluat în el şi i-a iubit fără rest, fără umbră, şi împotriva cărora spiritul lui critic, chiar dacă a fost prezent, a rămas neputincios. Aceşti oameni puţini, care ne fac pe fiecare în parte să nu regretăm că suntem, reprezintă, chit că o ştim sau nu, stratul de protecţie care ne ajută să trecem prin viaţă.” (Gabriel Liiceanu, Declaratie de iubire)

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Există momente rare şi preţioase în care avem totuşi norocul să apară în viaţa noastră persoane care ne redeschid drumul către dimensiunea noastră intimă, cărora să putem să le adresăm chemarea “Vino, să pot regăsi drumul înspre mine” (Octavian Paler, Definiţia dragostei).  Persoane cu a căror gânduri şi fel de a fi ne putem identifica şi suntem pe aceiaşi lungime de undă. Oameni faţă de care avem puterea să lăsăm barierele jos şi care ne oferă cel mai adesea motivele pentru care să nu regretăm că trăim pe acest pământ. Făcând acest lucru, probabil că rişti foarte mult, te expui într-un mod care poate deveni extrem de dureros şi eşti foarte vunerabil, însă ce poate să fie mai frumos decât tipul acesta de încredere? În care să nu îţi fie teamă să simiţi şi să oferi, fără a încerca să obţii ceva în schimb?

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Si vin intotdeauna momente cand esti gata sa dai tot universul tau de himere - peste care esti monarh absolut - pentru o mansarda in care nu domnesti decat daca stii sa fii in acelasi timp si vasal.

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M-am străduit din toate puterile să mă conving că numai ce admir mă înalţă, dar nu pot să mă prefac că nu văd şi nu aud.

Şi ca să tac mi-ar trebui o forţă pe care n-o am, ori o indiferenţă pe care sper să n-o capăt niciodată.

- Octavian Paler - Polemici cordiale

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"Există nopţi când te convingi că toţi au părăsit acest univers, chiar şi morţii, şi că ai rămas aici, ultima fiinţă vie, ultima fantomă ..." - Octavian Paler

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10.03.2013

ShinigamiKid: azi i'm testing new things, getting back to freelancing. Am un an de exercitiu de recuperat

Reen: parca ar fii o seara de vara, eu lecturez, tu html-zi... Ca si cum am avea timp...

ShinigamiKid: avem. Suntem prea depresivi sa realizam asta, prinsi in tot rahatul maturitatii. Refuz sa ma las prins in hora

Reen: no, Peter, we'll never grow up, never grow old, we'll never change, we're the boys of neverlaaaaaand

Quollection 40

If you don't love your imperfections ... Someone else will.

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Norocul ti-l faci singur.

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If it's not okay, it's not the end. This, too, shall pass.

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Nu stiu ce ploua si fulgera pe la voi. Eu am alte furtuni in cap....

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"we accept the love we think we deserve", and she doesnt feel like she deserves anything at all.

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Apoi sunt oamenii care au depasit nevoia de siguranta, au trecut pe nivelul urmator unde totul tine de acceptare, comunicare, relationare, emotii primare. Acolo lupta ta cu universul este teama ta de abandon. Daca nu te simti acceptat complet, daca simti ca nu poti comunica cu oamenii, daca simti gelozie, teama de a fii respins, teama de singuratate, atunci universul deja iti spune ca te multumesti cu prea putin si ca e cazul sa evoluezi.

Tine minte o regula, tot timpul vei obtine cu usurinta tot ceea ce se gaseste pe un nivel, doar dupa ce l-ai depasit. Cand esti pe nivelul respectiv, esti acolo ca sa ii inveti lectiile, dar nu ai obtinut tot ce iti ofera acel nivel.

Quollection 39

Try to learn to breathe deeply, really to taste food when you eat, and when you sleep, really to sleep. Try as much as possible to be wholly alive with all your might, and when you laugh, laugh like hell. And when you get angry, get good and angry. Try to be alive. You will be dead soon enough. (Ernest Hemingway)

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When the other person isn't there we sometimes tend to make up their side of the conversation. which truly isn't fair to either one of us.

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The idea of hurting anyone's feelings was the worst possible thing, but I was sacrificing my own feelings at the risk of it.

Something I should have taken a lot more seriously.

Something I do take more seriously now.

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...then she began to breathe, and live, and every moment took her to a place where goodbyes were hard to come by. She was in love, but not in love with someone or something, she was in love with her life. And for the first time, in a long time, everything was inspiring. (R. M. Drake)

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A comfort zone is a beautiful thing. But nothing grows there.

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One day, someday, all of this will make sense.

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If you lack the courage to look forward, at least have the balls not to look back.

Quollection 38

If you want something you've never had, be prepared to do something you've never done.

Have the courage to  ask the questions.

Have the brains to ask the right questions.

Nothing is more erotic than a good conversation.

You not believing in yourself is a tragedy.

Stop that shit.

You are powerful beyond measure.

Everybody wants to see you do well. Just not better than them.

Everybody likes you. Until you become the competition.

Know your own worth - nobody's opinion validates who you are. Happiness is a choice and your playing small does not serve the world. So stand straight, stand proud for what you believe in, stand for your dreams, Being proud does not make you vain - there is nothing wrong is acknowledging your accomplishments and celebrating them with self love. It's important to know what you want. Voice that, and own up to the consequences.

Let's try something new this year. Conquer a great fear. Change a habit or start a new one. Meet some people or let go of others. Remember, your life is a story in progress and you're the author. Make it a good one.

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You know you've read a good book when you turn the last page and it feels a little as if you have lost a dear friend. And you've hungry to read more but cannot bring yourself to start a new story for fear of disappointment that no following book will be anywhere near as good as the one you've just finished.

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15 Things You Should Give Up To Be Happy

 

Here is a list of 15 things which, if you give up on them, will make your life a lot easier and much, much happier. We hold on to so many things that cause us a great deal of pain, stress and suffering – and instead of letting them all go, instead of allowing ourselves to be stress free and happy – we cling on to them. Not anymore. Starting today we will give up on all those things that no longer serve us, and we will embrace change. Ready? Here we go:

1. Give up your need to always be right

 There are so many of us who can’t stand the idea of being wrong – wanting to always be right – even at the risk of ending great relationships or causing a great deal of stress and pain, for us and for others. It’s just not worth it. Whenever you feel the ‘urgent’ need to jump into a fight over who is right and who is wrong, ask yourself this question: “Would I rather be right, or would I rather be kind?” Wayne Dyer. What difference will that make? Is your ego really that big?

2. Give up your need for control

Be willing to give up your need to always control everything that happens to you and around you – situations, events, people, etc. Whether they are loved ones, coworkers, or just strangers you meet on the street – just allow them to be. Allow everything and everyone to be just as they are and you will see how much better will that make you feel.

“By letting it go it all gets done. The world is won by those who let it go. But when you try and try. The world is beyond winning.” Lao Tzu

3. Give up on blame

 Give up on your need to blame others for what you have or don’t have, for what you feel or don’t feel. Stop giving your powers away and start taking responsibility for your life.

4. Give up your self-defeating self-talk

 Oh my. How many people are hurting themselves because of their negative, polluted and repetitive self-defeating mindset? Don’t believe everything that your mind is telling you – especially if it’s negative and self-defeating. You are better than that.

“The mind is a superb instrument if used rightly. Used wrongly, however, it becomes very destructive.” Eckhart Tolle

5. Give up your limiting beliefs

about what you can or cannot do, about what is possible or impossible. From now on, you are no longer going to allow your limiting beliefs to keep you stuck in the wrong place. Spread your wings and fly!

“A belief is not an idea held by the mind, it is an idea that holds the mind” Elly Roselle

6. Give up complaining

 Give up your constant need to complain about those many, many, maaany things – people, situations, events that make you unhappy, sad and depressed. Nobody can make you unhappy, no situation can make you sad or miserable unless you allow it to. It’s not the situation that triggers those feelings in you, but how you choose to look at it. Never underestimate the power of positive thinking.

7. Give up the luxury of criticism

Give up your need to criticize things, events or people that are different than you. We are all different, yet we are all the same. We all want to be happy, we all want to love and be loved and we all want to be understood. We all want something, and something is wished by us all.

8. Give up your need to impress others

Stop trying so hard to be something that you’re not just to make others like you. It doesn’t work this way. The moment you stop trying so hard to be something that you’re not, the moment you take off all your masks, the moment you accept and embrace the real you, you will find people will be drawn to you, effortlessly.

9. Give up your resistance to change

 Change is good. Change will help you move from A to B. Change will help you make improvements in your life and also the lives of those around you. Follow your bliss, embrace change – don’t resist it.
“Follow your bliss and the universe will open doors for you where there were only walls” Joseph Campbell

10. Give up labels

 Stop labeling those things, people or events that you don’t understand as being weird or different and try opening your mind, little by little. Minds only work when open. “The highest form of ignorance is when you reject something you don’t know anything about.” Wayne Dyer

11. Give up on your fears

Fear is just an illusion, it doesn’t exist – you created it. It’s all in your mind. Correct the inside and the outside will fall into place.
“The only thing we have to fear, is fear itself.” Franklin D. Roosevelt

12. Give up your excuses

Send them packing and tell them they’re fired. You no longer need them. A lot of times we limit ourselves because of the many excuses we use. Instead of growing and working on improving ourselves and our lives, we get stuck, lying to ourselves, using all kind of excuses – excuses that 99.9% of the time are not even real.

13. Give up the past

I know, I know. It’s hard. Especially when the past looks so much better than the present and the future looks so frightening, but you have to take into consideration the fact that the present moment is all you have and all you will ever have. The past you are now longing for – the past that you are now dreaming about – was ignored by you when it was present. Stop deluding yourself. Be present in everything you do and enjoy life. After all life is a journey not a destination. Have a clear vision for the future, prepare yourself, but always be present in the now.

14. Give up attachment

This is a concept that, for most of us is so hard to grasp and I have to tell you that it was for me too, (it still is) but it’s not something impossible. You get better and better at with time and practice. The moment you detach yourself from all things, (and that doesn’t mean you give up your love for them – because love and attachment have nothing to do with one another,  attachment comes from a place of fear, while love… well, real love is pure, kind, and self less, where there is love there can’t be fear, and because of that, attachment and love cannot coexist) you become so peaceful, so tolerant, so kind, and so serene. You will get to a place where you will be able to understand all things without even trying. A state beyond words.

15. Give up living your life to other people’s expectations

Way too many people are living a life that is not theirs to live. They live their lives according to what others think is best for them, they live their lives according to what their parents think is best for them, to what their friends, their enemies and their teachers, their government and the media think is best for them. They ignore their inner voice, that inner calling. They are so busy with pleasing everybody, with living up to other people’s expectations, that they lose control over their lives. They forget what makes them happy, what they want, what they need….and eventually they forget about themselves.  You have one life – this one right now – you must live it, own it, and especially don’t let other people’s opinions distract you from your path.

http://skdesigns.com/internet/articles/quotes/williamson/our_deepest_fear/

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Our Deepest Fear 

 

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

by Marianne Williamson from A Return To Love: Reflections on the Principles of A Course in Miracles

Quollection 37

"Be the better person", he said. So I have to try, I guess.

I wanted to see him so bad that I didn't even dare imagine him anymore.

I know who not to take social lessons from. Because I cannot count my friends, while you can. Pitty. 

... "DON'T RUSH" dat de mana, in rosu, pe spatele unui garaj.  

Campii de salvie la Suncuius, langa livada de struguri. Atat. 

I promised myself I would not die again.  

Sometimes I feel like I'm being in so many directions I don't know which way to turn to. (Merlin)

You must learn to listen as well as you fight.  (Merlin)

 Im usually a hyper happy girl. So when I break down, dont fking try to cheer me up. If that wouldve worked, I wouldve done it myself. 

“The loneliest people are the kindest. The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not wish to see anyone else suffer the way they do.”

Most people want a magical solution to all their problems. Problem is they don't believe in magic.

Just because you can't do it today doesn't mean you won't be able to do it someday. Never. Give. Up.

"Where would any of us be, Merlin, if no one ever gave us a chance?" (Arthur)

 "Try to learn to breathe deeply, really to taste food when you eat, and when you sleep, really to sleep. Try as much as possible to be wholly alive with all your might, and when you laugh, laugh like hell. And when you get angry, get good and angry. Try to be alive. You will be dead soon enough. " — Ernest Hemingway

Fall seven times; stand up eight. Then ride a Dragon.

We are all mirror images of each other. What you don’t like in me, you see in yourself.

De poţi risca pe-o carte întreaga ta avere
Şi tot ce-ai strâns o viaţă să pierzi într-un minut
Şi-atunci, fără a scoate o vorbă de durere,
Să-ncepi agoniseala, cu calm, de la-nceput.

“Am I a good person? Deep down, do I even really want to be a good person, or do I only want to seem like a good person so that people (including myself) will approve of me? Is there a difference? How do I ever actually know whether I’m bullshitting myself, morally speaking?” — "Consider the Lobster and Other Essays" by David Foster Wallace

     

Quollection 36

We don't know how to be together, but we can't be apart.

By morning it just looks like two years of total freedom and independency. It wasnt all bad; I learned a different fighting style. 

I dont need all the fingers on one hand to count the number of people I trully care about. <3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">

Making peace with yourself is part of growing up. 

You know what sucks big hairy balls? Jealousy.  

Don't prematurely compartmentalize me.

Eu va iubesc si cand va certati si cand va impacati. Nu vroiam sa fiu dependenta de voi, dar ma bucur ca sunt <3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">

Facebook doesnt know shit. Twitter and Youtube suspect a thing or two. Tumblr was there, but it's a really good secret keeper. 

Paaaaatience, grasshopper. Things do get better. Or you get used to them.

Riding the train with the perfect soundtrack in your ears is an art.  

"I'mma put your head through a wall, any wall, you can even pick the wall but it's gonna be a wall. Okay?" ~ Luke Danes

Ideally, I want a job where I can sport Converse shoes and blue hair :) 

I think it's better to refuse a job than to be refused for a job. 

^-^ Iubesc oamenii care, cu un cuvant si un zambet, ti-au castigat ziua.

When was the last time you did something for the first time? 

Probleme existentiale cauzate de juxtapunere temporala, insuficienta financiara si absenta duplicatului genetic

"Please, make peace with your wits. It's not going to go away, Buddy."  

You're a happy combination between a piece of furniture and a pet. ILY. 

Wish it were dark, cold and silent, wish I were at the edge of a lake and wish I were having a smoke. Feels like tranquility or sumthin.  

We've spent more time together than we did apart. I don't know how to live without you...

 Sometimes I legitimately forget how old I am, so I subtract my birth year from the current year. I can never connect with the final number. 

Don't treat mishaps like sinking ships.  

I'm not afarid to hurt your feelings.

Never ever forget to follow your goals and dreams just to match up with someone else's acheivements.

Everything you say and everything you do should be based on the knowledge of the sheer fact that it's gonna be a memory imprinted in your storybook for the rest of your life. Make it a good story .

When you think I'll zig, I'll zag. Then when you think I'm gonna zag, I do zag, just to mess you up for the next time, when I might zig.

I'm Ace. You're Ice. We fit. 

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It’s this weird “nice girl” complex.

I’m meant to be flexible and fun and easy going and adaptable and generous and giving. ALL THE TIME RIGHT?! Even if it means I am run down and exhausted and completely out of energy to keep giving and people are stepping all over me.

It’s bullshit. And it leaves me forever feeling guilty about working towards something I want, because I feel like I’m not meant to want anything. Because it’s not nice to want things, because it detracts time and energy from giving!

And even when I do awesome things I play down all my achievements and my ambition anyway, and I never take credit for it.

Even though I have put in a damn lot of hard work to get where I am!

Sigh. Stupid personality. Honestly, my brain works in the stupidest ways.

First step is admitting it right?

Sallygetsitdone

Quollection 35

The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn, like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars ... (J. Kerouac)

Life isn't about finding yourself. It's about creating yourself.

I swear, sometimes it's like you want me to hate you. But then I remember you're the only one around whom I can afford to be stupid.

Don't be cheap. And don't shoot my dream before it has a chance to fly.

Continuous effort - not strength or intelligence - is the key to unlocking our potential.

You have nothing to lose for telling the truth, because you have nothing to win by telling a lie.

Watch them demons die, while I wipe their blood off my sword.

"Stand for something. Even if it means standing alone."

I don't wait for anything. I work for everything.

"You make my heart do cartwheels." :))) win

Whenever you think about giving up, think about why you've kept going for this long."

If you can’t win, lose like a champion.

Instead of being sad, be awesome instead. If you're having difficulty with that, take a shower. It works like magic ;)

I'm sorry for the ugly words I said out of hunger.

No one can hurt you without your aprooval.

It takes 3 days to break a bad habit and 21 days to create a new one. I'm not done yet.

Women must think like men, act like ladies, look like girls and work like horses.

Wake up, brush your teeth and put your swag on.

Study hard. Go on a run. Pay attention. Say "thanks". Be kind to people. Make yourself stronger than your excuses.

It's sickening how much you can actually like a person.

Jealousy is an ugly trait. If you can’t do what someone else can, the least you can do is be supportive.

"Mate, the sun's shining. We're bevvied, spliffed and sorted. Feels like the beginning of something. So I'm waiting. "

Know all the lyrics to what makes you beautiful.

Scopul nu scuza mijloacele. Reciproca e valabila.

Don't walk as if you rule the world, but walk as if you don't care who does

Make everyone feel better whenever you speak. <-- Make this your goal for today.

Video 10

"Live to Impress YOURSELF"
by Nuntfancy

Video 09

Day9: Kittens and Ninja Stars



Day9: Cambria



Day9 Dancing

Video 08

The 8 Principles of Fun

Quollection 34

Instead of being overwhelmed, I'll be awesome instead. I'm getting super agressive with loads of swagger! \o/

I highjacked the rainbow and crashed it in a pot of gold! \o/

Being nice to people, being good in school, being successful in business and being awesome in life is not a matter of chance, but a matter of choice. It's a decision. There is no such thing as "try", there is only "do" or "don't". And you can't ever say "I can't". You can say "I'm not done yet. So this is my decision, to spite the fates and fight the odds, I chose to have a better year, live a better life. I chose all the good things and overlook the downfalls. Learn from them, not live in them. I chose to see the good in people.

When things go bad, straighten your back, crack your shoulders, roll up your sleeves and deal with it. Instead of getting overwhelmed, be awesome instead.

Video 07

Day[9]'s Musings - Being Relentlessly Positive

Done with stress, time to just smile a lot!
Everything can be framed positively.
Next time you want to say "Sorry" say "Thank you" instead.
If you have negative influences, you don't have to put up with that.
Think about what relationships contribute to you.
People don't do enough dumb things to make themselves happy.
"Day9, you are the sexiest beast known to man!"
Compliment people excessively.
When you're feeling down, find someone else who needs help and help them.
Be ready for all the miracles that are going to happen today.
Do nice things to other people.
Tell yourself how much you kick ass.

Video 06

Be awesome!

DAYDREAMERS from Javier Cid on Vimeo.