It’s this weird “nice girl” complex.
I’m meant to be flexible and fun and easy going and adaptable and generous and giving. ALL THE TIME RIGHT?! Even if it means I am run down and exhausted and completely out of energy to keep giving and people are stepping all over me.
It’s bullshit. And it leaves me forever feeling guilty about working towards something I want, because I feel like I’m not meant to want anything. Because it’s not nice to want things, because it detracts time and energy from giving!
And even when I do awesome things I play down all my achievements and my ambition anyway, and I never take credit for it.
Even though I have put in a damn lot of hard work to get where I am!
Sigh. Stupid personality. Honestly, my brain works in the stupidest ways.
First step is admitting it right?
I’m meant to be flexible and fun and easy going and adaptable and generous and giving. ALL THE TIME RIGHT?! Even if it means I am run down and exhausted and completely out of energy to keep giving and people are stepping all over me.
It’s bullshit. And it leaves me forever feeling guilty about working towards something I want, because I feel like I’m not meant to want anything. Because it’s not nice to want things, because it detracts time and energy from giving!
And even when I do awesome things I play down all my achievements and my ambition anyway, and I never take credit for it.
Even though I have put in a damn lot of hard work to get where I am!
Sigh. Stupid personality. Honestly, my brain works in the stupidest ways.
First step is admitting it right?
Sallygetsitdone
